Tuesday, February 28, 2012

I finally read some Wendell Berry.

Just finished reading the book Recollected Essays 1965-1980 by Wendell Berry.  It lost my interest at times and completely consumed my thoughts at other times.  Here are a few of my favorite portions of the book. 

“But the binoculars not only give access to knowledge of lives that are usually elusive and distant; they make possible a peculiar imaginative association with those lives.  While opening and clarifying the remote, they block out the immediate.  Where one is no longer apparent, it is as though one stood at the window of a darkened room, lifted into a world that cannot be reached except by flying.  The treetops are no longer a ceiling, but a spacious airy zone full of perching places and nervously living lights and shadows.  One sees not just the bird, but something of how it is to be the bird.  One’s imagination begins to reach and explore into the sense of how it would be to be without barriers, to fly over the river, to perch at the frailest, most outward branchings of the trees.” –Page 51 The Long-Legged House

On moving his family back to his childhood home.

“I had made a significant change in my relation to the place: before, it had been mine by coincidence or accident: now it was mine by choice.  My return, which at first had been hesitant and tentative, grew wholehearted and sure…In this awakening there has been a good deal of pain.  When I lived in other places I looked on their evils with the curious eye of a traveler; I was not responsible for them; it cost me nothing to be a critic, for I had not been there long, and I did not feel that I would stay.  But here, now that I am both native and citizen, there is no immunity to what is wrong.  It is impossible to escape the sense that I am involved in history.   What I am has been to a considerable extent determined by what my forebears were, by how they chose to treat this place while they lived in it: the lives of most of them diminished it, and limited its possibilities, and narrowed its future.  And every day I am confronted by the question of what inheritance I will leave.” Pages 79-80 A Native Hill

“The difference between a path and a road is not only the obvious one.  A path is little more than a habit that comes with knowledge of a place.  It is a sort of ritual of familiarity.  As a form, it is a form of contact with a known landscape.  It is not destructive.  It is the perfect adaptation, through experience and familiarity, of movement to place; it obeys the natural contours; such obstacles as it meets it goes around.  A road, on the other hand, even the most primitive road, embodies a resistance against the landscape.  Its wish is to avoid contact with the landscape; it seeks so far as possible to go over the country, rather than through it; its aspiration, as we see clearly in the example of our modern freeways, is to bridge; its tendency is to translate place into space in order to traverse it with the least effort.  It is destructive, seeking to remove or destroy all obstacles in its way.  The primitive road advanced by the destruction of the forest; modern roads advance by the destruction of topography.” –Page 86 A Native Hill

Enjoy Mom, this one is for you!

“But there is not only peacefulness, there is joy.  And the joy, less deniable in its evidence than the peacefulness, is the confirmation of it.  I sat one summer evening and watched a great blue heron make his descent from the top of the hill into the valley.  He came down at a measured deliberate pace, stately as always, like a dignitary going down a stair.  And then at a point I judged to be midway over the river, without at all varying his wingbeat he did a backward turn in the air, a loop-the-loop.  It could only have been a gesture of pure exuberance, of joy-a speaking of his sense of the evening, the day’s fulfillment, his descent homeward.  He made just the one slow turn, and then flew on out of sight in the direction of a slew farther down in the bottom.  The movement was incredibly beautiful, at one exultant and stately, a benediction on the evening and on the river and on me.  It seemed so perfectly to confirm the presence of a free nonhuman joy in the world-a joy I feel a great need to believe in-that I had the skeptic’s impulse to doubt that I had seen it.  If I had, I thought it would be a sign of the presence of something heavenly in the earth.  And then, one evening a year later, I saw it again.” –Page 112 A Native Hill





An Entrance to the Woods.  It is too long to type up but I hope you all go out and find this essay asap.  I read this for the first time from my Hammock under the bright, hot Swaziland sun.  While reading this I felt back at home in the woods.  I have missed a lot of people while I have been here but I think what I have missed most is simply being able to retreat to the woods by myself.  Reading this essay brought me back there, if only for a few moments. 







“No place is to be learned like a textbook or a course in school, and then turned away from forever on the assumption that one’s knowledge of it is complete.  What is to be known about it is without limit, and it is endlessly changing.  Knowing it is therefore like breathing: it can happen, it stays real, only on the condition that it continue to happen.  As soon as it is recognized that a river- or, for that matter, a home-is not a place but a process, but not a fact but an event, there ought to come an immense relief: one can step into the same river twice, one can go home again. –page 248 The unforeseen Wilderness

“Where I am going I have never been before.  And since I have no destination that I know, where I am going is always were I am.  When I come to good resting places, I rest.  I rest whether I am tired or not because the places are good.  Each one is an arrival.  I am where I have been going.  At a narrow place in the stream I sit on one side and prop my feet on the other.  For a while I content myself to be a bridge.  The water of heaven and earth is flowing beneath me.  While I rest a piece of the world’s work is continuing here without my help.”- Page 265 The Journey’s End

Monday, February 27, 2012

Headbands to School Fees

                                                                                                           After several weeks of planning and preparing, Bailey and I finally met with the teen girls at Timbutini!  We are going to begin meeting with these girls every week to work on a craft project that will help them to raise money for their school fees. In my opinion, everything went really well.  Titi met with us to translate and help to lead the project.  Thirteen girls from the community showed up eager to participate.  Their ages ranged from 13-18, although most of the girls were closer to 13.  We spent the first portion of our time together with introductions, a quick get to know you game, and guidelines for the project.  Promises here are taken very seriously and so we wanted to make everything as clear as possible so that there were no expectations that we couldn't fulfill. 
                                                                                                                          


 

For this project we have decided to sew headbands.  This will be fairly easy but everything will be done by hand so we had to make it very clear that everything needs to be done well.  We decided that to begin, all of the sewing will be done together when we met every Saturday.  Every girl will have an opportunity to sew the same amount of headbands but they must show up every week.  The girls will receive two rand (about 25 cents) up front for every head band that they turn in.  Timbali will put the rest of the money aside and it will go directly to school fees.  We are still figuring everything out but we figure that if each girl makes about 15 to 20 headbands then we should be able to cover the costs of school fees for the following year.  At the end of the project in May the girls will give their receipts to us and we will go to the bank to pay the school fees directly, this way we will avoid any misuse of the money.  We have told them that the project will end in May.  If everything goes well, Julie hopes that Titi can continue the project next year.  It would be great to continue to give these girls the opportunity to earn money for their school fees and it would be even better if it could be run by Titi, who is a part of their community. 

One of the other AIM staff members was telling us that many of the young girls from Timbutini become pregnant at a very young age.  Everyone is excited about this project and hopes that in addition to helping with school fees that it will encourage a healthy support system among these girls.  AIM has some curriculum that focuses on teaching about HIV/AIDS and more importantly showing young girls that they have value and worth.  Bailey and I have started to look over this curriculum and we hope to incorporate part of it into the time that we share with these incredible young women.  
                                                                                                                                       I am really excited about this project and for this opportunity to build relationships with these young girls.  I am also excited that from these headbands we are giving girls the opportunity to make sure that they can continue their education.  We hope to sell some of the headbands to the teams that travel to Swaziland.  Bailey and I will also be bringing some of the headbands back to the states to sell.  So, that means that you will get an opportunity to support these girls and their education.  Get ready to shop and help us turn headbands into school fees!



A Zip Lining Adventure

Last week Bailey and I visited another  nature reserve about an hour from Manzini.  This reserve is unique because they provide a tree top canopy tour!  For about two hours Bailey and I zip lined from one platform to the next, enjoying the incredible scenery as we went.  Bailey was a little nervous of the heights but she did great.  This was a really incredible experience.  The beauty of the Swaziland Mountains still awes me and it was fun to see a little bit more wildlife.  In fact, we saw three baboons and some sort of antelope. 














I had been hoping to do the zip line tour ever since we heard about it a few weeks ago.  Although there was a lot of excitement about the possible adventure, the decision was still difficult as to whether or not to go.  It was a little expensive to participate, and besides my own need for saving money, I also feel very guilty about spending so much money when I daily interact with people who live off of $2 a day.  In the end I am glad that we chose to go on the tour.  There are several reasons why I say this.  First of all I may never be back in Swaziland ever again and I need to take advantage the opportunities that I have while I am here.  Second, I see a lot of value in loving and enjoying a place. Specifically when it is this beautiful!  Finally, I am reminded of all of the discussions about self care in my social work classes.  I know myself, and I know that I am energized when I am able to retreat to places of wilderness.  I needed this day to stay healthy mentally and to fall more in love with this place.

I am realizing that, just like in all other things, balance is needed.  I by no means want to flaunt my wealth, spending money frivolously.  I also want to use my money to benefit others.  I do not want to be a tourist in this place.  I want to be committed to the people here.  It has been my goal for many years to live as simply as possible so that I can use my money and resources to help others.  So how do I find that balance?  I feel that I will be asking myself this question for the rest of my life.  For now I hope that I will be able to be mindful of the poverty that surrounds me while still enjoying this beautiful place. 


I know a lot of you have been struggling with this same thing.  Please share any thoughts, suggestions, or conclusions that you have reached.

Wednesday, February 8, 2012

21 memories and lessons from my 21st year of life

This year has been one adventure after another.  I experienced a lot throughout this year and I wanted to share some of the great moments of my 21st year of life.  Enjoy.

1. Turning 21.  I am all grown up.  I had a blast celebrating my birthday with my incredible friends and family.  This was a fun weekend full of laughter.  Thanks to all of you that made this a memorable celebration!

2. It felt so good to complete the 2011 spring semester.  Talk about a stressful time in my life.  Things were stressful but in the long run it was totally worth it.  I couldn’t have made it through without some good friends by my side to remind me to laugh.

3. Life with the folks at the Lutheran Campus Ministry will forever be the best part about being a student at Bemidji State University.  I am actually getting a little teary eyed as I reflect on the friendships created through this ministry, the spiritual support that I was given, the laughter shared, and of course all of those meals consumed.  (I guess this one includes more than just last year)

4. BH2O+ 2011!  Some friends and I planned BSU’s second Be Hope To Her event last spring.  It was a joy to raise awareness around campus about lack of accessible clean water in developing countries.  We raised some money for wells and walked around campus with large yellow buckets on our head.  The event ended with everyone gathering in a circle to talk about their thoughts on the event.  This was one of the most inspirational conversations that I have ever taken part in!

5. A third trip to Guatemala.  I skipped a week of classes but it was totally worth it.  What a joy it was to see the community of Nueva Guatemala again.  I love being “Choosea!”  I also really enjoyed our delegation and I was ecstatic to spend a week with good friends who I rarely see.

6. "Nothing compares with the simple pleasure of a bike ride." -John F. Kennedy  I rode my bike a lot this past year.  It was good. 

7.  A year of dreads.  I cut off my dread locks, mostly because they wouldn’t fit under my graduation hat.  All in all, I really miss my dreads.  I wish that I would have kept with it for at least one more year.  They are gone now but my year of dreads gave me a lot more confidence in myself. 

8. Graduating (kinda)! I walked at graduation last May even though I still had two semesters left.  My time at BSU had come to an end and I wanted to walk with the rest of my Social Work Cohort.  This was a fun celebration and I am glad that I walked at this graduation ceremony.

9.  A second summer at Wilderness Canoe Base.  After taking two summers off for other adventures I was thankful to return to camp for another summer.  I truly appreciate this community and was happy to be reunited with this place.  WCB always helps me to center myself.  After such a hectic semester it felt good to take lots of time to myself reexamining my goals, motives, dreams and beliefs.  I am also thankful for the new friendships created this summer and the old friendships that were strengthened. 

10.  Life as a canoe guide.  I had the great blessing to lead some truly incredible kids through the BWCA this summer.  I still cannot believe that I actually got paid to go on these trips!  My favorite trip was a short three nighter with a group from the Plymouth Youth Center.  These kids had never been canoeing or camping, never made food over an open fire (some had never had s’mores), most had never spent a day without their phones, and one girl had never jumped off of a dock into a lake.  All of these new experiences made this trip challenging at times and meant more work for me but it also meant that everything was new and exciting.  These kids had been through some pretty rough times.  They all knew hardships through growing up in foster homes, moving to new a new country, losing loved ones due to violence, gang involvement, and becoming a mother at seventeen.  For this week this group had the opportunity to be kids again, to paddle, swim, play, and enjoy the incredible BWCA.  I will never forget this group and I am thankful for the few days that we spent together!   

11.  Paddling the border route from Seagull Lake to Fort Charlotte and completing Grand Portage.  I carried an aluminum canoe 8.5 miles with a nasty infected in-grown toe nail.  Yuck.  Physically, this was the most difficult thing I have ever done.  If I can do this, I can do anything.  I really appreciated the support of my campers and my co-guide on this trip.  We had a great little community of support and because of that we were able to accomplish one great adventure!

12. Finding a new home in Duluth.  I had a blast getting to know this new city and I cannot wait to return!

13. The Loaves and Fishes community.  The Bible story about Loaves and Fishes is all about sharing what you have with others.  My experience with this community was just that.  I lived at Olive Branch from August to December.  This was a trying experience at time but that did not stop me from falling in love with the people living and working within this community.  I learned so much from everyone and I feel so blessed to have found another family within these houses of hospitality!

14. CHUM.  I spent this fall as an intern for Churches United in Ministry.  This is a homeless shelter that provides people with their basic needs, works towards stabilization, and strives to bring about social change within the community.  This was an incredible learning experience that has truly prepared me for wherever the future may go.  I loved being a part of CHUM for those few months.    

15. Shane Claiborne Event.  While working at CHUM I was able to be a part of the committee that planned the Fall Community Assembly.  The speaker for this year’s assembly just happened to be one of my favorite authors.  I really enjoyed planning this event.  Everything ran very smoothly and it was exciting to meet Shane in person.  The best part of this event was that my Mom, my pastor, and two of my friends drove up from the cities to see Shane speak.  I was so happy to share this event with people who I love.

16. All Souls Day Parade.  I learned how to stilt walk this fall!  For all souls day I joined a troupe of other stilt walkers and together we lead a procession of about 50 or so people.  We made some awesome skeleton costumes and strapped on our stilts, leading the group up and down a cobblestone hill at night.  This was such a fun event.  Moving to Duluth I never thought that I would learn how to stilt walk.  I am so excited about this new hobby and I cannot wait to master some higher stilts.

17. Lake Superior.  I feel very drawn to this big BIG lake.  In September I went for a dip with some friends and two of us decided to make it our goal to jump in to the lake every month of the year.  So far, we have completed September-January.   I am excited to complete our goal next winter.   

18. New Years at Camp.  This was my 6th New Years that I have celebrated at Wilderness Canoe Base.  This celebration was full of broom ball, winter hikes to the bear cave and rock wall, a winter bonfire, polar plunges, good friends, jam sessions, card games, and much laughter.  This trip was especially appreciated this winter because of the lack of snow everywhere else in the state.  I was pleased to get a small winter fix before running away to Swaziland for several months. 

19. The first two weeks of the new year.  I spent these two weeks enjoying time with good friends and family.  I had a blast traveling around the state (and WI) and catching up with friends.  I would like to extend a big thank you to all of you who opened up your homes, dorm rooms, and schedules for me.  I enjoyed sharing meals, having good conversations, playing games, and going on adventures with each and every one of you.  I love you all.

20. Returning to Swaziland.  Finally after 2.5 years I have returned to Swaziland.  The trip is just beginning but the first few weeks have been incredible.  I feel so blessed to be reunited with friends and to see this beautiful place during the Swaziland Summer months.

21. Working with Timbali crafts.  I am spending my final semester working with Timbali Crafts in Swaziland.  I am very excited and thankful for this incredible opportunity.

 If you know me well you know that I am a dreamer.  A lot has happened this year.  All of these new experiences and relationships have allowed me to dream even more about the possibilities of the future.  Thank you to everyone who made these experiences possible, thank you to everyone who has supported me throughout this incredible year, thank you to everyone who has joined me on adventures and dreamed alongside of me.  I cannot wait to see what dreams will be brought to life in my 22nd year of life!


It is a little sad for me to think about not being home for my birthday, but when I reflect on this year I realize that every day has been a beautiful celebration of this life.  I love you all and I am so happy I have had the blessing to celebrate life with you.

Many of you have helped me celebrate past birthdays with Charity Water.  If you are interested in donating again the link to my birthday campaign is http://mycharitywater.org/p/campaign?campaign_id=23215

Monday, February 6, 2012

An Average Week

The last two weeks here in Swaziland have been a lot of orientation.  It was very important to learn our way to all of the different care points, learn about the Swaziland culture, and figure out our role here with Timbali crafts.  As we begin our third week I am pretty eager to dive in and get started.

Here is what an average week will look like.

Sunday
Of course Sunday means church.  Our first Sunday here we went to the Timbutini church along with a team that was here and a world race team.  This is a very traditional Swazi church.  The service was in a small, hot, crowded building.  The service pushed 2.5 hours…woof.  Because of our late arrival we sat in the back and I had a hard time hearing the man that was translating the message into English. 

This Sunday we went to a church called Potter’s Wheel.  This church is located near Mbane and is very different than our experience the previous Sunday.  This service was completely in English and most of the congregation were missionaries from all over the world.  The microphones ensured that I heard everything,  the seats provided much personal space for everyone, and the air conditioning was so cold that I had goose bumps the entire time.  Like I said, very different than the previous week.

Despite their differences, both were great experiences!

Monday
Monday is our day off!  Today will be pretty quite.  Titi, our Swazi friend and translator, will be braiding Bailey’s hair. I will post pictures as soon as she finishes!  I plan to spend the day reading in the Hammock that is in Julie’s back yard.  I also plan on organizing the garage were Timbali sells their products to the different teams that come through (I can’t sit still too long).

Tuesday
Jane
Right now I am most excited for Tuesdays.  Bailey and I are going to start doing an interview of sorts with all of the ladies that participate in Timbali.  The purpose of these interviews will be to update the information that Timbali has on the women.  I am excited for this because it means that Bailey and I will get to spend time with each lady, getting to know her.  It is hard being the new face around and I cannot wait to build relationships with these women.  Last week we did our first interview with a lady named Jane.  Jane is a kind hearted 66 year old.  Her family seems to always be growing and it took her a minute to count her 8 children, 20 grandchildren, and 5 great grandchildren.  She is currently caring for 6 of her grandchildren after one of her daughters passed away.  Jane has had some health problems over the past few years but that has not stopped her from cooking at the Timbutini Care Point every other week.  In fact, she has been preparing meals at this care point for the last ten years.  If you ever have the great blessing to meet Jane you will soon learn that she will talk your ear off whether or not you speak SiSwati. 


Wednesday
 Wednesdays have been pretty quite so far.  On these days we will be going to the market to buy fabric for this week’s projects.  Going to the market is always a fun experience; you never know what you will stumble upon.  Last week I found a pair of underwear with my name on the elastic…pretty awesome.


Thursday
Every Thursday Bailey and I will be at a care point as the ladies cut fabric and turn in the purses from the previous week.  As the ladies cut, we do a quality control and take inventory on all of the incoming projects.  The last Thursday of every month is pay day.  The women get paid a certain amount of money for each piece that they turn in.  This month was a short month because of their summer vacation so pay checks were smaller than normal.  Every pay day Julie buys some fresh fruit and veg so that the women can buy food for themselves and their family.  Whenever there is down time with the care point we also can go outside and play with the kids at the care point.

Friday
There are no definite things on the schedule for Fridays.  We might do more home visits, hang out at a care point down the road from our apartment, deliver paychecks and fabric to the ladies in Nsoko, or help out Titi and Julie with logistical stuff.  We will also have some Fridays off, which means adventures.  So far on our days off Bailey and I hiked and drove around Mlilwane Game Reserve and relaxed at a hotel pool.  We are both looking forward to trips to the Indian ocean and Kruger national park!

Saturday
Saturdays we are going to start working with some of the older girls at one of the care points.  We are going to do some sort of project with the girls to help them save money for school fees.  We have not started this project yet.  Hopefully things will get organized for this coming Saturday…I will fill you in later!